Cover of The Seeker Ascends (Inanna Publications, 2018)
Year: 2018
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Synopsis: The poems in this book trace the emotional and spiritual journey of a woman whose beloved son dies after an arduous battle with cancer. Nudelman explores the nexus between art, healing, and truth. As the poet/mother gradually climbs out of grief's darkness, she reclaims her own life's purpose. Confronting her losses, she heals. This collection is about strength, survival, love, and the healing that comes from self-empowerment through speaking one's own truth and releasing the past. Inspired by art and nature, the poet/mother reconnects with her own fortitude and the possibilities that still exist.

Testimonial(s)

“It is gratifying to read poetry that cares about devotion and dignity, by a poet who is capable of lyric sensibility with bold and fearless reach. Nudelman addresses the enigmas of illness, loss, vision and forgiveness in language lit with commitment.” – Elana Wolff.


“These are poems of maturity that grapple with life's terrible losses. With candour and grace, they move knowingly through pain to resilience and calm.” – Ruth Panofsky


“In The Seeker Ascends, Merle Nudelman dares to tackle the most painful question of all, how to come to terms with the loss of a child.  Drawing on Judeo/Christian, pagan, and new-age mysticism lexica and lenses,  Nudelman pushes for answers until her narrator ultimately reconciles with her fate—“[Despite] Devotion to the power of three three three./Still, at thirty-three her son dies.”  What follows is an unstoppable poetics of energy and life force that bursts and thrusts with linguistic force all in defiance of death. Yet despite everything, the narrator can no longer heal her dying son, and finally surrenders to the question of “What now?”  finding both peace and forgiveness.” – Laura Lush.


Review

"This book had me right from the opening quote by Pablo Neruda

“That time was like never, and like always/.
So, we go there, where nothing is waiting;/
we find everything waiting there.”

The imagery, mood, and inherent hush pervading the poem “Autumnal” are brilliant and haunting: “Mallard’s dance tenders // maples flushed gold / the heft of this quiet / on their shoulders”. and there is a bending and a blending of human heart and earthly horizon in the last lines of the poem: “woven into oneness / you, me / this sunset, distant land // there yet here / as well”.

Here is a sample of a couple of stanzas of esoteric recipe in the poem “Sensation and the Sublime” “Rooted in alabaster / she’s a sail seeking. / Silence reverberates /// she enters the garden, / breeze’s spectrum, / listens for reflections.”

“Old Business” brings the spectre of fear to life in the crash bang backdrop of a timid inferred music… a song almost forgotten but unfortunately remembered: It is four powerful stanzas of loud symphonic blasts and tender troughs. I would offer a sample here but cannot as the poem must be read as a whole. And, it definitely is a poem that needs to be read and digested in one’s own personal space.

In “Mechanics and Metamorphosis” the heaviness of the moment manifests: “Destiny pounds / demonic on the door / We hide / even as she slides beneath.” Devotion under harsh circumstances rears its beautiful head in the lines “Poisoned you tend me’ // broken, I coddle you.” It is the becoming of the metamorphosis and the metamorphosis of the becoming. A fine poem indeed!

And last but certainly not least, my favourite poem is “Life Dream” It runs through the ‘possibilities’ of three scenarios: All the world’s a stage /// and all the men and women merely players /// They have their exits and their entrances” These three premises are layered over one: “and one man in his time plays many parts.” This poem makes you question the reality of the dream, which may not be the dream in reality " – Candice James, Canadian Poetry Review, June 11, 2018


The Innocence of Change
For  Blue Vase and Flowers by Judith Davidson-Palmer

Chrysanthemums yawn
languidly in cool light –
stalks taut yet
swan-neck supple,
leaves mudra-cupped to catch
sheer August sun

trickling past prim purples,
brassy, sassy rose,
down long-legged stems
stuffed
into the generous mouth
blue and unpuckered.

Blooms bleat
in the late noon
about their floral life,
trust in glazed clay
to nourish, close the cut
where roots once were,

to hold the huddling
safe to September.
Backs sag,
mums droop
and some heads
drop to the table

while others chant
    Doctor, she know,
    she water me strong.
Another petal
spins to the surface
screeching a cobalt gasp.

 

Land/scapes
For Proclaim by Carolyn Jongeward

Step onto the oracle's orange lip,
        the mandala's thin rim,
tread marmalade-slow tasting
        the spicy mosaic:
its curry, mandarin,

        paprika heart cooled
cream and proper gray.
        The symmetry of a cluster.
Plucked, scattered daisies
        reassemble whole 

within the congruity of fire and air.
        Each petal is storied,
each budding dream made material
        then harvested,
informing the formless interior.

        Ephemeral land/scapes
bound by magnetic bonds
        oscillate--
attracted yet distinct
        separated by compassionate paths

beiged and silvered.
        You enter at the edge,
brush the lines rushing round the compass,
        their illusory haste.
Precise segments shrink, slot.

        Roused to tangerine,
organized by ovals you are pattern
        repeating, combining,
passing through other gates, dawn's horizon,
        the circular linear bending infinity.